Not Dissociated

I'm not dissociated
I am otherwise associated
Drifting away in a daydream
Lost in a moment

Lost in a moment far from the here and now
Hiding in a little side room off reality
Beat a quiet retreat into numb stillness
Still numbness
Quelling rising anxiety with a wash of somewhere else

Someone else
Away with the fairies
On another planet
The lights are on but no one's home
Caught up in patterns
Spaced out
Zoned out
Trippy

I'm not dissociated
I am otherwise associated
Floating away from the weight of the world
Resting face: gormless
Looking vacant but really
Otherwise engaged